Dear Hudson – July 27, 2017

Last night, after I put you to sleep, I scrolled through my phone and came across a letter I wrote in my notes back on January 2nd of this year, 2017.

It said…

“Dear Hudson, last night was going to be one of my memorable nights with you. Right before going to sleep, I messed around with you, taking your nose off and telling you it was going to be mine. The sound of your laughter is always happiness to me! I love making you laugh and I enjoy our moments together. At one point, you asked me to sing to you and I sung “You are my sunshine.” Then you asked me to tell u a story about pirates & mermaids. Together we created our own story about them.  It wasn’t fairytales but it was our story and I will take this memory with me forever. Before u fell asleep you grabbed my arm put it around you and said “mommy, I love you.” Tears of joy sprung, but also sadness occurred because one day you will not be this little boy anymore and selfishly I don’t want the innocent moments with you to ever go away!  I decided to start writing these moments down, so that I may share them with you when you get older. I love you my Beautiful Son 😘.”

Reading this note, brought me joy.  Especially because we just shared another memorable moment after I picked you up from camp.

Tuesday night before I went to bed, I made the decision I was going to pick you up from camp and we were both going to have a picnic at the park and spend some quality time together. 

I put together all things I knew you would want to have at the park:

  • YOUR CHOCOLATE MILK (lord knows that’s the first thing you ask me for when I pick you up) LOL!
  • Your toy guns
  • Your Ipad (I know “What?” Ipad at a park? Fortunately, you used it for like 5-10 minutes.) Ha-ha

Then I put together all things I know as a mom would want to have at the park:

  • A blanket, a chair, a sweater (weather had cooled off bit from the heat wave we had recently)
  • Some snacks, stuff to make peanut butter & jelly, cheese, yogurt, juice, water…you get the gist!

Damn I forgot the WINE…Grrrr. Oh Well!

Wednesday’s is our day back together from daddy’s. Most of the time when I pick you up, we’re either going to someone’s house or cooped up indoors, but I wanted to be sure we had a lot more quality time together now, while you’re still 5 or at least a young boy still, before growing up before my eyes.

We sat close to the playground area and I thought it would be you and I hanging out on the lawn area for a bit, while we had something to eat together, but you actually ended up playing with some of the kids in the play area instead.  Image result for smirk emoji

It was all good! I just sat back, watched you interact with the other kids and have a good time!  I chimed in every so often to play with you and the children from time to time, and that was fun too! 

Most of the kids had left after while.  You asked me to sit with you on the blanket and we just chilled together. You on your iPad and me laying down while listening to music off my phone and enjoying every beautiful breeze that passed through.  It was such a peaceful moment with you!

In the future, when you read this, I want you to know how extraordinary it is to have these special moments with you.  It is not always about quantity but the quality and bond that we create with each other that matters most to me.  

I look forward to life growth with you and building a stronger bond each time. 

I Love You Bubby! 

Love Mama

Xoxo

 

 

 

 

I’m Feeling Good

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I was asked by my co-worker why I was in a good mood today and I had to stop and think for a sec. I realized no particular reason at first but then it dawned on me.

I have been working out and staying on course with it for the past 4 weeks and lord knows I hate working out, so that’s a PLUS for me! 🙂 I’ve been working on my Abundance University workshop and nearing the end of it.

I’ve also been reading two books:

1.) “How to Transform Your Life – A blissful Journey” by Geshe Kelsang Gyatso

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2.) Self Coaching 101 Use Your Mind – Don’t Let It Use You by Brooke Castillo

They both relate to the mind and thoughts and how we can overcome the unwanted or negative thinking we create and bring us closer to inner happiness.

Bottom line is, I am feeling good. I’ve made some small tweaks in life and I’m creating new habits one day at a time.

Here are 8 tweaks I’ve done to date:

  1. Workout 6 days for at least 30 minutes.
  2. Got an accountablity friend.
  3. Reading 2-3 times a week (for now, gearing to read everyday). Feeding my mind with positive information.
  4.  Smiling more.
  5. Sending messages to friends & family. Praising them or thanking them.
  6. Hung up my vision board, I made 4 years ago, up on my wall to remind myself of my future I have ahead.
  7. Sent out my first email to three amazing women I know and informed them that I am licensed facilitator for Danille LaPorte’s Fire Starter Sessions book and wanted to set up a workshop with them to build up my facilitator skills.
  8. Started a gratitude jar (need to work on the consistency part).

What tweaks have you made in your life to feel good these days?

I’d Love to hear from you. Please share!

Love ya.

Xo

Lady Gwen

 

Accountability: Who holds you accountable?

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We’ve all heard that if you want to meet your goals or achieve something you really want, you need “accountability.”

Strangely enough, someone from the past and barely knew, has offered to help me!

I am Grateful. 🙂

Monday evening, I went out to dinner with someone who I knew of back in high school, but I never socialized or knew anything about him. His name is Mike. We were never in the same circle of friends.  However, he is close to one of my girlfriends, Marianne. She also went to same high school and they both work in the field of Real Estate. During her 4oth Birthday party last month, he and I met for the first time since school.

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It’s funny how the universe works people in and out of your life.

In conversations with Mike, I got to know who he is.  He is smart and really ambitious when it comes to his success.  Our friend Marianne said that he is one of their biggest realtor in their office and he’s really good at what he does. The way he spoke, I felt how passionate he is about his work, where he is headed and what he wants to achieve. It really inspired me.

I shared with him about my life quest, what I was not sure on what I wanted to do and how I want success too, but I haven’t experience the feeling of “How BAD do I really what it?” sensation. He agreed that I was all over the place. I have so many ideas but not one solid foundation to start with.

We went through all the criteria…

What’s your Why?

What holds you back?

What are you goals?

If it’s not in writing, it doesn’t exist!

I expressed to him, I don’t know how to set goals. I’ve never really had a need to set goals in the past. I’ve pretty much just lived my life by the seat of my pants. Day in. Day out. I had my mom to support me and be my cushion to fall back on. Don’t get me wrong. I worked jobs to make some living and not completely rely on her, but I didn’t push myself harder to achieve more.  Which is why I struggle today.  I had no ambition for anything before. I was very comfortable with life. Till NOW!

By the the end of dinner, it came down to being accountable and having someone to help me with it.  I told him about programs I’ve invested in to help me find my way.

Have you heard of the “Abundance Factor” movie?

Have you heard of Riley Dayne?

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If you have AWWWWESOME SAAAAAUCE!  If you haven’t YOU MUST WATCH. If you liked or loved the movie “The Secret”, then you will enjoy this one also.

I bought Riley Dayne’s program “Abundance University” back in February. As I stated in my last post, Owning Your Truth, the procrastinator that I am, I had started the program but then stopped.

Same withB-School by Marie Forley. I bought that one two years ago and I still haven’t worked on the program.

I have great intentions to want to move ahead, I just need that spark to ignite the momentum and consistency behind it.

Mike said he understood my emotional struggles with myself and was very empathetic in what I’m going through. He has faced and still faces at times, the ups and downs and pushing through the barriers that holds us back.

He has offered to be my accountability person.  He is holding me accountable to work on these programs, which I started today, and let him know when I’m done with every module I complete. I must also be accountable on the days when I can not complete tasks and tell him why I couldn’t get it done.

This encounter with Mike, in the most unforeseen moment, has made me an even bigger believer in what you ask from the universe you will receive.

Someone once asked him..

Do you want to be SAFE or GREAT?

He said ever since that question he knew he wanted to be “Great”.  It was a very powerful question. Like him…

I WANT TO BE GREAT!

What do you want to be?

Who holds you accountable?

 

I’d love to hear from you.

Please share.

Xo

Lady G

 

 

 

 

 

Happy 4th of July!

Good Morning.

Have a beautiful 4th of July with your loved ones!

 

 

Xo

Lady G